I’ve thought a lot about the toll guilt and shame have taken on my being and I wonder if these two emotions are not a problem in many peoples’ lives, especially those who break down in some way, such as people like me who get sick, or who are homeless for many years of their lives.
How can anyone have confidence or imagine success when wracked with guilt, or if we are separated from family or friends due to the shame we feel? It’s much harder to go through life separated from loved ones because they are embarrassed or ashamed of us. I guess that’s the point, though.
Have you ever wondered why we are who we are? Doesn’t it make sense that we enter into life to be who we really are? That would mean that we are born to the life we have chosen specifically for us to learn what we’re made of, and to grow from the understanding we gain through living our lives. We might try to suppress certain inclinations, but we can’t, because that from which we hide (even if only from ourselves) raises its ugly head in surprising ways, usually at the worst possible moment for maximum humiliation. At least, that’s the way it worked for me. 🙂
Our conscience was meant to be our guide, not to trigger years of wallowing in guilt and hiding in shame. Not only does wallowing separate us from others, it separates us from God because we put up a wall there: “Don’t try to talk to me, God. At all! I know what I’ve done and that I’m one of your black-sheep rejects. I get it, okay?”
That voice is not Love talking. It is the darker part of our human nature that, at least until we are willing to stand toe-to-toe with it, manipulates us away from the light. I see this like we are all in a movie with a great battle between Love and fear and fear wants to control us, while Love desires only to heal us.
What a wonderful world it would be if we could bag up our guilt and shame and take it all to the dump. Then those of us who harshly denounce others could go and trade in our condemnation for compassion. We’d be people at peace with each other and yes, that would be a wonderful world.