Colleen in Cairns, Australia, who blogs at Reflections of Me, left me a caring and supportive comment this morning about my 3.7.10 post, The Blogging Journey. I reread the post to see what had inspired her comment. Oh, it was the feeling I had one day to delete the entire blog. I would never actually do that, but in those moments of weakened faith (“How, Lord, can these things happen?!”), it was all I could do NOT to go to my Admin area and click on the delete box. Even though I don’t like that I felt this way, I said: “I’ll show YOU, God.” But I know that we humans mistreat each other all on our own, and that God does not create our problems, that He/She inspires us to solve our problems–but wow, some days we humans, who consider ourselves to be of the highest order on Earth’s evolutionary path, are actually more like animals.
I also wrote about the difficulty of daily posting, of staying centered enough to show up at the computer every day to write something meaningful, but the truth is, this blog is God’s gift to me. When people become too sick, too disabled to be a productive member of society over a long period of time, they lose heart. The 40+hour work week seems to grind away at us when working (I clearly remember thinking TGIF on many Fridays), and I’m not saying that being consumed by production is a good thing, but having a place to go to work every day, growing close to co-workers and sharing in each other’s lives, is deeply significant. You don’t know how important work is until you can no longer work. Just ask all the people who are unemployed now; it steals away some part of who we are and it is an important part.
When I was inspired to start this blog, it gave me a purpose again, helped me to chase the, “I’m worthless,” feelings away. The idea didn’t come in a blinding flash; I simply found myself at the computer, typing words into sentences and though I didn’t know exactly what I was doing, I really enjoyed it! Therefore, fellow bloggers (my co-workers) and fellow readers (my customers), I’m making this request: If I begin to complain about daily posting again (or anything else for that matter) before I arrive at my one year anniversary on June 14th, please leave me a comment that says, “STOP IT, YOU BIG WHINER!”
Thank you so much!