When I first began to meditate, back in the dinosaur days, I would breathe in love and breathe out hate. It wasn’t long before I realized I didn’t have a lot of hate stored up, and later that hate is not the opposite of love—fear is. It wasn’t the occasional fear that I experienced, like if someone had pointed a gun at me. It was the over-riding conviction that something bad is always coming. At the fear-realization, I began to breathe out fear. To this day, 34 years later, I am still breathing out remnants of fears, which I ask be dissolved. I don’t want to leave any of it stored anywhere inside my mind or body.
The worst part of a problem with fear is that whatever is most on our minds is what we attract to ourselves, and fear provides the ultimate in self-fulfilling prophecies. Fear feeds on our energy, our life-force, and the more it feeds, the greater our fears and the less energy we have to deal with them. Make most any group of people afraid in any situation, odds are it will turn deadly, because fear brings out the worst in us. What the fear-monster wants more than anything is power over us and to control our behavior. And with our modern instant-access news reporting, the barrage of fear-inducing events never stops. I’m trying to remember, is fear one of the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse? No, I think it’s in charge of them.
Letting go of old fears while not buying into new fears (recognizing fear as the enemy) is a good approach to finding a life worth living. The possibilities for a good life are always there, even for damaged people like I was. It’s a lot of work, but why should any of us settle for a life lived in the darkness? We can choose to become better people and to take life one day at a time, forgiving ourselves when we slip. And maybe we shouldn’t watch the news. Maybe in order to heal, we need some time for ourselves without any more of the incessant, unsettling input. What would they do if we stopped reading, listening to or watching the news? I wonder . . .
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