Do I Know Who I Am? Why I Am Here?

Looking back at my life from the 57-year vantage point, some things have become clear. One is that time goes really, really fast–like a bullet. I know everything is speeded up now, but I think our human lives have always seemed short, especially when the call to cross-over suddenly shows up. No matter how we’ve lived, what we’ve given or what we’ve taken, there simply are not enough days.

Life really is school, yet regardless of our education, toward the end, we are not asking ourselves questions about degrees and doctorates. We are asking about how we lived: Did I make any difference? Will I be remembered? Did I keep my promises to my loved ones? Did I treat others with the respect they are due? Did I tell those I hurt how deeply sorry I am? Have I forgiven those who hurt me? What impressions will I take with me?

Something else is clear: Being caught up in the whirlwind of production, activity, accumulation–all that stuff–isn’t what’s important. What’s important is getting to an inner place that is like a mountaintop, and peering down at the broad expanse of the valley below and really seeing what’s going on. Do I know who I am, where I came from, why I am here? Do those people down there know who they are, where they came from and why they’re there? Can I help? What makes time valuable? Is it expertise–or is it the art of living?

Maybe someday, together, we will work our dilemmas out, we will figure out how to live more meaningfully, with an eye for compassion, a touch for healing, and voices raised in blessing-words of kindness. We have so much power within us to do so much good; this is what unites us as human beings. Of course, none of us can be shoved or dragged into a higher expression of life on Mother Earth. We must choose to ask those important questions, to seek the answers, and to live as though our real lives depended on it.


10 thoughts on “Do I Know Who I Am? Why I Am Here?

  1. Yes, it’s really difficult to find the way for a worth-living life…
    I’m 30 and I’m scared of doing it wrongly! I think the only important thing is the inner experience, because whatever you left behind will be wipped out at the end.
    It may look sad, but that’s life!
    At least we got sometime!

  2. Javier,
    You cannot live your life wrongly–everything that has happened to you and that you have done are all experiences to learn from. There are no mistakes–there is only growing from experience.
    Material things are not permanent, but we, our souls, are permanent. It’s very difficult to live without a roof over our heads, food in our bellies and some work to do, so we require these things. The important thing to remember is that there is more, deep within us, like a candle lit by Love. If you cannot sense the candle-spark within, a very good thing to do is to volunteer somewhere. Have you felt sorrow for homeless people, sick children, the problems of immigrants? Wherever your heart draws you, in your free time, go and give yourself. Your sadness will change to joy and you will have found a life worth living. Take care of yourself.

  3. If one is honestly self-critical and feels like they have not done what they should, they deserve hearty praise. It’s not the people who kick themselves for doing so much wrong that are in trouble, it’s the vast majority of us who rationalize as right all that we do that we know inside to be wrong. If the former can get over guilt and depression from making mistakes, they can easily find that thinking differently will rapidly yield a much more meaningful life, and they can work on their problems. I think about how much I’ve learned and how far I still have to go, and it makes me feel like life is still exciting because there is purpose. But those who try to defend themselves from honest self-reflection and blame others for problems and cover up their failings are lost in a fog (and EVERYONE has failings and mistakes, numerous times each day — that’s part of being human, from age 2 to age 122…maybe under 2 and over 122 we can avoid mistakes).

    • Well, I think we should automatically let off everyone under six, at least. 🙂 And self-reflection is one of the most important things we can do for ourselves and for each other. We humans are all the same, sailing along in a big boat together, and it’s simply not about puffing out our chests; it’s about extending our hands in understanding, forgiveness and friendship. I’m cautiously optimistic. And very stubborn. I’ll just keep writing and writing about love, sending it on thought-waves into the ether, knowing that in some way, all our communications are helping change things. Thanks, Scott, for adding so much positivity to the dialogue here.

  4. A friend of mine died yesterday. I had a dream about this & shared it with her family – Nancy received the card re my dream the same day Djenane died. We don’t see each other often, but the heart connection is there. Yes, life is short – but the heart connections last. We can support each other spiritually, without limitations. This support system is invaluable. We can touch everyone placed in our path.

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